douglas feng.

2012-02-07T15:58:00.000-08:00

one of my old best friends is having a kid.
another was hit by a truck and put into a 3 week coma last year.

i don't know why i feel so unmoved.
im feeling-less.

2012-02-06T12:21:00.000-08:00

i'm back on this because i really hate microblogging. i need a new outlet for shit. i need to start balancing everything in my life. i have to worry about shit that's not even within the next couple months of my life.

fuck you.
fuck fuck fuck fuck
im really overwhelmed with everything.
fuck you. again. twice.

2009-11-24T14:47:00.000-08:00

MOVED, CLICK HERE.

2009-10-26T00:19:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time since i've updated blogger. in a sense, a lot has happened even though not much has changed. let me recap. ive been going out and just doing whatever while making some new friends and losing some old ones. i've been going out and trying to adjust to this new change in life and the transition still remains quite ackward. finally finished with ritchel's cotillion court, freeing up time to hang out on my tuesdays now. still hate most of my classes and continuing to count the days until the end of semester. lost all my money, but bought my first car a mazda3 sport hatchback '07. still need to get the license, too much pressure. life is stressful and my family plans on going to vegas for christmas this year. i really hope everything looks up for me the next couple weeks and the transition goes more smoothly.

(via /sooper-dooper)

2009-09-19T02:03:00.000-07:00

anna and elizabeth are leaving for colllege. within the past couple days a lot of thinking back has been going on. growing up is bittersweet. childhood friends are moving far away, and it feels like ive taken advantage of the time i had left with them. it sucks, i wish i could go back and have deeper talks with these people, go on more crazy adventures, live life, and spend the days awake. now that time is gone. my stomach feels empty, metaphorically of course. it just sucks, i dont go to school with these people anymore. time keeps moving forward and its onto a new journey for these people. im just really sad about it now, it just hit me. im going to miss these people so much. growing up is bittersweet.

2009-09-18T18:03:00.001-07:00

phoenix concert @the warfield. it was a good experience, had hella fun with danielle (@travelsizedani). they played all the songs i was expecting and ended with 1901. the concert makes me want to listen to their latest release more.

definitely a concert worth catching again.

2009-09-18T17:44:00.000-07:00

SFMOMA. who knew art galleries were boring. too strict and hella floors of walking.

first floor.

i still don't understand some of the art on display. most of them actually, maybe i'm just not analytical.

2009-09-12T01:06:00.000-07:00

i've finished up the first two weeks of college. nothing has really changed, it feels like an extension of summer where i have to wake up earlier and do some reading. im hoping for change in life, i dont want the way things are now to keep on reoccurring. it is time for something different.

other than that, my classes are pretty weak and im hoping that everyone starts interacting more. i feel like i should have taken more classes and im definitely reconsidering other majors before it's too late and im stuck with mines. well see how things pan out.

2009-09-05T01:34:00.000-07:00

finally watched 500 days of summer. it was a chill friday night, newark chalked as always. went to union landing with danielle (/elliekoning) and had a good time. hella funny and had a good story. the asian ladies behind us was annoying as fuck though. if you've seen the movie, during the part about 'the puma,' the asian lady behind us said: "oh my gosh" during the pants part. halirious, but annoying. definitely buying it when it comes out on itunes.

plus i think zooey deschanel is hella cute, i think most can agree.

2009-08-30T05:14:00.001-07:00

as people wake up and start their day, i'm just finishing mines. this summer has brought on horrible insomnia. anyways. with every great high, comes the crash. that went by quick, maybe i can get another hit. one more day of summer, ill post later.

2009-08-28T00:44:00.001-07:00

today was an interesting day. probably the most fun i've had all summer without having to use substances or highs. i got to hang out with most of my old group of friends. went to madfish with anna, steven, justina, and taylor. a lot of fun because it definitely reminded me of the days when we used to be solid. afterwards we chilled at tap and at stevens house. video chat with ian and played cards. although the ending was a bit unexpected, today was fresh air.

2009-08-26T23:49:00.000-07:00

all the plans on my itinerary is not pulling through and my busy week is slowly becoming less busier. im still buying a lot of things, when i know i shouldn't. i've gotten three american apparel hoodies and a couple of shirts. i still need to buy my new backpack and pay for my books.

i'm going to madfish finally with anna, steven, justina, and taylor. hopefully. i need to remember to buy my books and backpack tomorrow online and get ready for the lake trip if that's still happening. idunno, i'll find out if i'm going tomorrow.

2009-08-26T01:22:00.000-07:00

as summer is closing in, i've found myself busier than ever. i'm making plans and hopefully closing out this summer with good vibrations. today was spent getting things together for school. went to ohlone to buy my english booklet and spent the morning looking into renting my books or buying them used. i spent the rest of the afternoon in gilroy looking for fall clothes. bought my first american apparel jacket, my mom was complaining about the prices. typical. missed a shift for the first time ever at work, but it's okay because it got covered. school is coming around the corner and i have a few things to do before i go back to ohlone.

crash welcome day at fremont ohlone with ritchel and erick.

sushi with anna coronado on thursday since we've been meaning to catch up.

find coverage for saturday at work.

last trip to lake tolluch on friday and saturday to wrap it up.

stupid semiformal dinner at cheesecake factory with coworkers saturday night.

buy a northface backpack before school on monday.

a lot to do in a short period of time, hopefully my semester at ohlone is a good start to my transition into becoming an adult.

2009-08-24T02:03:00.000-07:00

kid cuDi - man on the moon (the anthem) whenever this song plays, my thoughts become clearer and my desires become more relevant in my life. right from the beginning, it sparks the ideas and thoughts of things that i avoid that deeply underlies everything in my life. for this reason, i continue to listen.

summer is coming to a wrap and as the final days of my senior summer go by, i'm looking back more and more. im coming to a conclusion of the error in the way i live my life. everyday continuing to fix my problems. the summer was fun, very chill. not too many problems but there was some strife. long nights of beer pong and kings cup, hanging out and eating out. hookah sessions that never ended, and some that ended in headaches. sushi and long drives with danielle. long work days that never seemed to end, and the work days that seemed so much fun that you never wanted it to end. dreading going to school in the morning and long study groups with great people. pinkberry and froyo eating, deep talks and long movie days. rock the bells. going away parties, and people leaving to college. sad that it's coming to the end now. this is one for the history books.

2009-08-19T03:43:00.000-07:00

summer so far has been good.

rock the bells was fun and im just soaking up the final days of summer before ohlone starts. i need to see my counselor soon to talk about my situation with my math class.

2009-07-28T22:33:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is my final for my econ class and all i'm thinking about is rock the bells. i'm excited, what can i say? neil (/hellan0rcal) is going to try and buy the tickets tonight at midnight hopefully. learned a lot from the last concert-- life lessons. this is why this year-- me and neil are going to get reserved level seating, we are going to bring a packed lunch with drinks, and we are going to have a better time than most people. the lineups not that good this year, but i'm still excited for nas, his set was dope last year. plus, it's more than just the music, it's about the company and vibe rock the bells brings every year.

general admission lawn.

2009-07-25T13:24:00.000-07:00

last night was my first night back from the lake, and had a good time. i was hella blasted, and we smoked hookah and played kings cup. so i was feelin' pretty good. sorry ellie (@elliekoning) for eating all of your food, but we went on a well-needed midnight mcdonald's run. later on, i got picked up by danielle (@travelsizedani) and we had another late night talk in her car.

2009-07-24T19:29:00.000-07:00

back to blogger, and im here for good. everything lately is pushing forward, life's continuing. i'm moving on from what happened and hopefully growing from it. it's time for a change, i'm going to continue to push forward and re-evolve myself. time for drastic change in my outlook on the world and strive for a better me.

just got back from lake tulloch with nick's family and alyssa. it was incredible, the weather was nice. the company was good, swimming all day, and finally being able to relax. hope i can go out again, definitely something to repeat.

2009-07-17T22:12:00.000-07:00

i'm in the middle of a bad streak right now. since i got rejected at my board of review. i have not had anything good happen to me. i had a shitty work day, which caused me to miss two beach trips. i found out i have shitty friends who do shady shit. i get flaked on after four hours of fuckin waiting, i have people asking me for favors who i could give less of a fuck about at this moment of my life. annoying. this is some fucked up shit. im tired. i dont know what else to say, i dont think i deserve this and i want my fucking license already. worst two days of my life period.

2009-06-10T00:19:00.000-07:00

i think the saddest people are the ones who give up so quick,

but then, i'm not one to be quick to judge.

i'm not accepting change for what it is,

let's make a new reality of this informality.

GRAD NITE '09!

2009-05-31T23:03:00.000-07:00

grad nite was hella fun.

i love disneyland and i want to go back again this summer.

especially to ride space mountain and finally ride indiana jones.

and i finally got my mickey mouse ears.

good night at work,

2009-05-19T23:15:00.001-07:00

tonight was a good night at work.
not much work, helped arpine make her puppets for her shakespeare final and made ice cream sundaes with candy pieces in it, all nights should be like this.

vanilla ice cream, snickers, twix, and m&m's. goodstuff, much love.

spring concerts.

2009-05-17T01:01:00.000-07:00

tonight was the last night of spring concerts.
crazy, this really marks the beginning of the end of this chapter in life.

les mis solo.

'for now i know what i must be, and now my heart is flying free.'

it just hit me, its time to keep moving forward.
god bless.

back to basics,

2009-05-12T23:00:00.000-07:00

it was time for a quick shift of layout. its the basic default blogspot default, i was tired of the nice looking one. either way, the layouts on blogger just annoy me. i'm not much of a blogger anymore anyways. i'm on that twitter hype when i remember.

lately it's been pretty chill, the year is ending quickly and the time is slipping rapidly but slowly. this week was probably one of the worst. four hour saturday school this weekend, bad vibes and shit with friends, and slacking off in classes. not good. some complications at work, thanks darren; but thats something i will end up facing later on this week, grreat. choir concerts startup officially tomorrow; rehearsal afterschool and first concert is on thursday, $10. three medleys, one giant solo. sounds like a good show; well compared to last semester at least. diane's lingerie party on saturday, and i'm missing out on the beachtrip because of choir. good weather, i'm more of a cold seasoner though. it's time to figure out how everything's falling. crashing, slowly.

moving forward

2009-04-28T21:49:00.000-07:00

i'm glad to see old friends and starting off where we left. the emptyness is starting to feel full again.
but getting ready for college is a little challenging.

ps. i need to take placement tests and pick up my camera from geek squad.

spring break, no camera.

2009-04-13T04:49:00.000-07:00

first day of science camp, my camera broke.

i wont be getting my camera back for two weeks while its at best buy.

anyways,

friday was the kickback at justines. we just chilled and hookahed while role models was playing in the background. i finally got jamba juice because i've been wanting it,

saturday, i woke up extra early to have breakfast with danielle before she left for washington. i got a call from kim and went with tony to her house to do her slideshow music. afterwards, got ready for her cotillion. her cotillion was hella fun, good memories with the court-- "the group." went to julius's new house and was hella faded. i played beer pong for the first time and won my first game with darren. goodshit, 'cus i was faded to the point where nothing made sense.

sunday was easter. just macbooked and chilled at home. nothing to do with everything closed. got a call from sean to go kick it at his house for a "camping" trip in the backyard. watched yes man, smoked some stoges, and just chilled. had to cut early though because i have the midshift at work tomorrow.

march madness,

2009-03-23T22:27:00.001-07:00

very interesting few weeks. busy with work and school lately. picked up some good and bad habits, i think it's time to start enjoying life again. this past weekend was junior prom, i had a good time with my date and my group.

on top of prom, the last assembly of the school year was a couple weeks ago. it was great to finally be done with my responsibilities in leadership and to do asl for hats again, it was all good fun. coming up fast is senior week- battle of the sexes, science camp, kims cotty, and spring break to look forward to.

rainy days.

2009-03-02T22:07:00.000-08:00

it's the start of more rainy days to come.

it was a great trip to alameda yesterday with elizabeth.

i've got some videos uploaded of asiid and supreme soul from yesterday.

Empower Event.

2009-03-01T23:18:00.000-08:00

SUPREME SOUL & ASIID!

had a blast, great performances and it's a good cause.

i'm definitely volunteering again in october. SUPPORT THE CAUSE!

empower promo rally.

2009-02-25T22:35:00.001-08:00

working at the concert on sunday from noon until eight.
i'm going to be a performer escort, kinda excited.

sadie hawkins.

2009-02-21T00:05:00.001-08:00

last high school dance, other than prom. me & bianca dressed up like rob and big.

it was alright, hella hot, finished off the night with wingstop.

downtown thursday.

2009-02-19T22:42:00.000-08:00

today was a good day, i went to san francisco with bianca.

took her to eat blondie's for the first time. went to urban, h&m, and other stores.

afterwards, we got starbuck's and took bart home.

panera bread.

2009-02-19T22:33:00.000-08:00

i have been going to panera bread with danielle all week during third.

choir isn't a fun class, but i think i'm going to start attending class tomorrow.

the foods pretty good there though.